hmm, let me think

A Quote About Love that I Loved :)

2011-08-25T00:50:00.002+07:00

One day,
he will pick me up
wiped my tears
heal my wounds
get me up
and enlighten my path

The love that I loved.

Heart won't fails me,
it just knows.

Thank Allah subhanahuwata'ala
for all the never-ending-love You've given to us always.
He keeps our heart and feelings
safe and sound
so it could predict
whether thing is good or bad
whether to keep going or keep mourning
whether to look up or looking back
whether thing is right or just wrong, wrong.

He knows the best.
He have never and won't ever fails.
:)

Bye Mister

2011-04-12T08:00:00.003+07:00

You were once been there in my life,
it was nice.

You were several times made me cry directly and indirectly,
you hurt me,
it was bad.

You were at last told me that you letting me go,
you said I didn't pass your test,
man, it was holy crap.

You were saying that I'm almost perfect in your eyes,
that you already find another girl,
it was sucks.

You were once treat me good,
you were once be the sweetest guy ever,
you were once be the one I loved,
but
you turned yourself into a whole package of jerk
and now I see

I was right at the very first.

You have never been real to me
I thought you were too good to be true,
but I knew that I was blind, I was wrong.

I really do not want to hate you,
but now it's just what reality leads me to do.

I saw your jerky movement, hardly spoken
and I do regret all the serious feelings I've built for you.

At the end, I'll be laughing at this
but now, I don't want to give an inch of my attention for you
not anymore
not for being hurt of your sweet sayings.

You are a good person, at least you don't do any harm or jeopardize anyone
You are a good friend,
therefore
I don't want to blame every step you take,
I'm free
and judging your life makes me think like I'm stuck in those illusions
then at the end I'll hate you.

No, evil, I don't do your way.

The fact is, he's not with me
never been with
it is very okay that he flirts another girl.
He's just like me, he's free
he have always been.

You describe yourself as a not-so-good-person
it is very understandable if I don't like your way
esp. in these times
it is very normal if I disagree of you hurting another girl
but hello, it's your life dude, I know
and it's just my opinion.

I had loved you once,
and once is enough.

I'll forgive you right away
then walk my path in peace and calmly.

Good bye,
mister been-too-wrong.

(end of story)
---

shodaqollahul'adzim

What's on earth, make me think like this?

2010-12-08T07:48:00.002+07:00

"The Man Who Can't Be Moved"

Going Back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand
Saying, "If you see this girl can you tell her where I am?"

Some try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense but what else can I do
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you

'cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving

Policeman says, "Son you can't stay here"
I said, "There's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year"
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

'cause If one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving,
I'm not moving, I'm not moving

People talk about the guy that's waiting on a girl
There are no holes in his shoes but a big hole in his world

Maybe I'll get famous as the man who can't be moved
Maybe you wont mean to but you'll see me on the news
And you'll come running to the corner
'cause you'll know it's just for you
I'm the man who can't be moved

[Chorus 2x]

Going back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
this lyric I post, in order to open somebody's heart.
I have been telling myself that I'm pretty good to leave him alone.
He made his mistakes, and unfortunately mistakes that he involving me.

I keep telling myself that I haven't ever liked him
I keep telling myself, not to like a person like him
I keep telling myself, that he's just one kind of jerks that still survive in this Era
I keep telling myself, that I could leave those things in my past
I keep telling myself, "ga usah suka, apalagi sayang, bahkan peduli pun ga usah sama orang kayak dia"
I keep telling myself, that I'm just too kind for him.. that he'll do anything he wants to me

but, it's my friend that keep telling me.. that:
"go out of him, Rin. he never ever mean every single thing that happens between you and him. he's just toy-ing you.. he's just playing with you.. he's just a bad boy that you dont deserve to be with"

my sister telling me:
"it has been wrong from the beginning. He's just not a good man to live with, Rin. Mendingan ga usah. Awalnya udah salah.. yang kayak begitu ga penting untuk diterusin"

One thing that I cant easily agree:
"the truth is, dia ga merasa bersalah"
and if he's still hanging with you to get your attention, just let him be.

if he's serious,
let me see him trying.

I've been disappointed. You should work hard to make me believe.
And I hope you mean it.

Well, I could live this world without you.
I met new friends, then you'll just being a person in my life among a billion more.

You know what?
It means that I'm still waiting for you.
:(

How bad you are, mister.

I just CUT my hair

2010-07-13T21:38:00.002+07:00

After a loooong long time of being patience, I (finally) went to a saloon called Larissa. If you are college student in Yogyakarta, especially in GMU, then you must have heard about Larissa. It's pretty famous, though.

It was the first time I went there for a hair-treatment. I have been there for facial treatment, the most hurting hours a woman could feel. Drama queen, yes. Hehe. But, it worked very well. After months I used their cosmetics, I found my pimple and the thingy in my face is disappear significantly. That's why I found that Larissa and me: nice combination.

I went there with Nurmala Hanum, you can call her Hanum for short. She went for cream bath, I went to get my hair cut. It had been soooo long since my last cutting-hair-day. My hair is now short, the longest part meets my shoulder. It's quiet extreme, it was meets my elbow before. But I don't care too much, I love having a short hair.. it becomes more practice for me since I wear my Hijab. :)

Well, I finished "Negeri 5 Menara", at last. I am going to read "Jerusalem". I don't know what will be there in that story, but Bismillah. InsyaAllah it brings me to the whole new perspective.

That is all for today, I guess. Oh yeah, me and Hanum did a lots of tallks just like we always did. We talks about nothing to something interesting. We shared anyyyything and I love doing that with my girl-bestfriend.. now I miss Ika.

I decided to make a change the upcoming semester. Man Jadda Wajada. Bismillah, if we do things with good will, then Allah swt. will be in our side caring and supporting our fights. Maybe I will share it sometimes, not for today.. sorry.

I <3 Allah swt.
May He and Rasulullah lead me to be homed in His heaven, with my beloved family and friends.
Amin.

:)
Good luck for all the Dreamers all around the World !

A good Quotation :)

2010-07-12T21:28:00.000+07:00

"When you can dream it, you can do it. It's important to dream of something. Make that dream now. Learn hard about it and at the rite time, you'll be ready to make some action to achive that dream "

(Walt Disney)
From a good family friend -- Mba Anggi

Saya dan WNTD-crew

2010-06-09T21:01:00.003+07:00

Aku padamu, kawan

saya dan teman-teman kepanitiaan World No Tobacca Day yang sungguh sangat luar biasa.

dari beberapa kepanitiaan yang sudah saya jajaki, kepanitiaan ini lah kepanitiaan yang paling kental rasa 2009 nya, paling gila, paling seru, paling gokil, paling homey, paling kekeluargaan.. pokoknya sampai kapan pun saya sayang banget sama orang-orang sinting di sini.

saya jatuh cinta sekali lagi sama BEM,
dan saya merasa keputusan saya untuk bergabung dengan kalian sangat tepat.
di tengah keasingan yang ditawarkan kampus UGM,
saya menemukan hangatnya organisasi melalui tawa dan kebersamaan yang kalian tawarkan..

walaupun orang-orang gokil yang berkecimpung di kepanitiaan ini ga cuma dari BEM, ada dari CIMSA dan AMSA juga.. kalian pun tanpa perkecualian, saya gemari.

bersama kalian, waktu serasa melayang tanpa meninggalkan rugi.

I love you all, without exception.
Thumbs and hugs for you all :)

One of My Friends is Missing

2010-05-10T18:37:00.002+07:00

You know, when things are depend on how you take a step.. it is hard to take care of another thing.

I have through that kind of condition, and I fail.

I was controlling things, there you are helping me. I was so d4mn focused, or maybe I was really a jerk who doesn't care anything but her job than a friend. You can call me anything, you can do me like you hate me for years. But I want a thing from you, before you decide your choice..

I want to hear forgiveness from you, my dear friend. I made mistakes..

Then, if you had enough of being my close friend.. I can understand. I'm a jerk, you deserve a dozen persons who are just like you.
I'll always try to be there, anytime you need my help.. and I hope I won't fail my promise, insyaAllah.

Yah, begitulah..
habis manis, sepah dibuang. bukan niatan membuat semua ini menjadi dramatis, tetapi mungkin keresahan ini memang harus terjadi untuk menjadi awal pembenahan diri saya..

Maaf ya.

Lagu Sendu, Audy

2010-01-22T15:18:00.001+07:00

Ketika ku menangis tersedu
Kuingin dekatmu
Jika kuingin lepaskan rindu
Sandarkan diri di bahumu

Dan karna sesuatu
Dan itupun salahku
Tak dapat kau terima
Kaupun berlalu
Ketika ku menangis tersedu
Tanpa dirimu hatikupun kelu
Dan karna sesuatu
Dan itupun salahku
Tak dapat kau terima
Kaupun berlalu
Ketika ku menangis tersedu
Tanpa dirimu hatikupun kelu

Reff: Andai kuulang waktu
Kukan kembali ke masa itu
Dan ku kan hindari kesalahanku
Kisah kasih syahdu
Sayang semua berlalu
Akankah kembali kisah itu
Ku tak tahu .. uuuu

2010

2010-01-02T18:16:00.001+07:00

Dibalik pengorbanan ada kekuatan,
Dibalik kekuatan ada keyakinan,
Dibalik keyakinan ada tekad yg kuat,
Cobalah lihat ke depan..
Maka kau akan menemukan pilihan:
kau menang dan bersyukur, atau
kau menemukan jalanmu pulang lalu bersyukur.

Yang mana pun yang dipilihkan Tuhanmu,
baik itu kemenangan ataupun kekalahan bagimu,
semua adalah baik bagimu secara keseluruhan.

Dia MahaTahu, Maha Melihat, Dia menjaga kita dari kegagalan yang tersembunyi, dan memelihara kita dari keterpurukan.

Bismillah dan bersemangat! >:)
(22 12 2009)

About My Opinion of Friends

2009-12-06T21:58:00.000+07:00

They always know how to kill monsters in my nightmares,
they know my obstacles and they are there to fix me.

They are there, just there.

But, it's enough for me to know they are here to stay.

They are you, my friends.

Lucky me to have you :-)

Jakarta, the dearest

2009-12-06T21:48:00.002+07:00

Alhamdulillah untuk hari ini,
gue ketemu sama bocah-bocah kesayangan
ketemu sama om-tante sekalian
kangen-kangenan sama mama dan kakak tercinta (ekhem)

dan ga lupa,
guling-guling di kamar paling berantakan sedunia.

Emang deh, pamulang is the bestest place on earth!

Semoga, saya memang pergi untuk kembali.
Amin, Ya Allah :-)

A sentence to remember

2009-11-19T13:27:00.001+07:00

Wise person told me that if you are not ready to taste the thing so called love, then you just need to avoid it.

There, I'm all done.

it's a brand new ME, people ~

2009-11-14T12:37:00.003+07:00

everybody asks :
why?

I just want to answer
It's just about time,
my heart is telling me that
Now is the Right Time

I'm on the left,
with my besty Mon
taken by my other besty Dat

Attention, please..

2009-10-31T15:57:00.001+07:00

SAYA PENGEN HUNTING

PLEASE,
GIMANA NIH

AAAAAA
>.<

my backup, aaa

2009-10-12T19:16:00.003+07:00

parah parah, udah kelamaan ga update blooog nih ck.
hmm, kemaren abis ikut LDK FK UGM 2009. asik marasik banget dah.. huakakakkk
tapi ga ada fotonyaaa sebel. ntar deh kalo udah beredar di fb baru di upload di sini. hehe

sekarang darurat nih! singkat aja ya.. account di photobucket udah nyaris basi, makanya gackground image jadi brekele.. intinya ribet dan sudah malam!

nah, ini foto tak pindahin sini buat cadangan.. oke!

I <3 So7, much

2009-09-14T07:47:00.001+07:00

Saat mata terhalang oleh malam,
tidur dan berkembanglah
Saat sang pagi kembali menari,
datanglah dengan hati

Bila kau ragu pada impianmu,
percayakan padaku
Jalan hidup yang akan engkau tempuh,
percayakan padaku

[Reff:]
Tumbuhlah, jadi pendampingku,
seiring, malam yang menjemput senja
Kekasih, percaya padaku,
kau nyata, tercipta ‘tuk disampingku

Kau tak ‘kan pernah tahu apa yang kau miliki,
hingga nanti, kau kehilangan
Maka jangan pernah tinggalkan aku,
kekasih, oh ke-kasih~
Lagu untukmu, oh ke-kasih

[Reff]
(Percayakan Padaku, Sheila on 7)

Dijamin kalo dinyanyiin lagu ini dengan baik dan benar,
naksir gua langsung, luluh hati gue, luluh! Aaa.. Imagine myself being proposed with this song, even sweeter invite the real So7 would be nice. Hm, hm. Aaa (ngayal)

Eh gile, pagi-pagi begini udah ngayal. Wakakakkk, tau ah. Lumayan lah, memupuk pikiran menyenangkan dan positif sangat dianjurkan lho untuk menyegarkan pikiran Anda, Saudara-Saudari sekalian. He he

Kesengsem gua sama So7 all over again! Kyaaa >.< (They are one of reasons why I love being here, Jogja)

I ♥ them, much.

Kapan yaa nonton mereka lagi? Hiks hiks :'(

Aaaa I love you full!

2009-09-12T22:42:00.003+07:00

Aaa teman2 kelompok 41 tercintaaa,

I missed you :(

3 days sharing laugh, 3 days feeling tired
We did all of those funny memories together..

Even now we're separated,
don't forget those 3 days yaaaaaaaaaaa

I miss you already, friends :')

Suis, Rona, Ranjidam, Cici, Smitha, Fiqi, Mas Rendra, Arief, & Mbak Daat.

Quickie Update!

2009-07-19T00:45:00.003+07:00

Just got back from Bali last night, and it was GRRRR-EAT !
Gosh, I really hopes my eyes could do better. I'm sleepy but still, I want to share some shiny thingy from my holiday trip!
Well, it's just one of my photos.. tommorow would be better, I assume.

Well, hello sunshine!

A quick update has just complished.
Naughty night ! (it supposed to be nighty night, though ;p)

Another Blog

2009-07-13T23:29:00.002+07:00

Setelah berpikir bahwa membaca postingan panjang pake skin ini hanya membuat para pembaca menjadi "Cuapek DEGH," (masalahnya gue juga puyeng ngebacanya) jadiii gue bikin blog baru yang isinya posting panjaaaaaaaaaaang.

Di sini buat foto2 atau some other things which doesn't take so much space in your window. See my other blog if you have some times blogwalking ;)

KLIK SINI YAAA :)
tararengkyooou

Faces :)

2009-07-13T19:18:00.002+07:00

Yaaaaaak,
Photo Updaaaates!!!

eneng cover gal

si otong favorit ku

Date : July, 11th 2009
Location : Pesantren Darul Khoir, Bogor, Jawa Barat, Indonesia.
Taken by : Astarini *

This theme is definitely me

2009-07-13T17:35:00.007+07:00

Emang deh, nggak ada yang bisa menggantikan theme ini sama yang lain. hmmmmm, cakeeuuup.
Eh tapi, emang ga enak dibaca ya kalo nulis post yang panjang gitu. hh.
yasudahlah, aku tak kuasa mencari penggantinya.. huhuhu

my blog is very very senyap

2009-03-10T19:56:00.005+07:00

okay okay okay gue udah ga pernah ngurus blog.. jadi sebagai permintaan maaf gue beri foto freak to the maxxx gue (yang gue tau lo semua ga perlu waakakkakkk)

JENG JENG
saksikan di saluran tv kesayangan anda ;)

Ya Allah.. ampunilah astarini yang nggak pernah bisa bikin post dengan baik dan benar.........
and to be honest, it's an after-Mraz-concert-watching kinda effect.
(bhs inggris ngawur seperti biasanya)

maaf kawan2 yang ada di foto nistaaaa itu.. sorry, I'll not mention your name kokss okay!
aaand see you all bloggers, gilaa baek bener masih maen2 ke blog bapuk begini. okelah semoga gue segera bertobat. good bye !

gue yang mana? ooh itu lah gue yang paling freak lagi memohon kepadaNya semoga otak gue lekas nyambung. ah tau aaaah semakiiiin freak!

Bad First-Impressions

2009-01-11T20:51:00.004+07:00

When people saw me at the very first time, I don't know what was exactly on their mind.
But now, I knew.. I made a terrible mistake for being so-not-nice in front of those new people in my life.

Why am I writing these? Well, actually, after a long long time scared for falling in love.. I just realized, maybe now I've found the right key to open my heart again. Despite all of the sudden, I made a really big mistake.

If you have a crush on someone, of course there's a time when you really want to know whether this person feels the same way too or they don't. But in my case, I don't know if I'm able to think about it.. because it seems way too far. I asked a friend of mine, who is a boy, what was his opinion about me when we were not really know each other like we do now. Then, here comes the striking fact of myself which I didn't know for so long, he thought that I was a really peeves girl. I was shocked, but thankful for him being so honest. Nobody ever told me the truth--well, cika did-. I appreciate him so much for telling me those things, he's really open my mind.

He told me what is the reason for him to thinks like that at the time.. and he answered that I was :

Jutek , and
Nyolot

Besides, I was just kidding when he thought like that. I didn't know that my sarcastic jokes really affects people's opinion about me.

So, for those undesired behavior, I just want to say :

I'm sorry from the deepest heart of mine.
I promise you, I'll try to be a better person so I wouldn't ruin my own life , I wouldn't get you wrong about myself, and I'm very honored if you could help me solving my problems. I'd appreciate that so much.

Thank's to you who was being such a good listener yet a good adviser too :)

And, last but not least.. I hope that person (the one that I can't tell you who he is ;p) didn't think like that or at least not yet.

Help me ! :'(

new year, new skin

2009-01-04T20:03:00.006+07:00

Hey people, maybe it's a new year plus 3 days, but still I want to saaaay :

Happy New Year, everyone !
Good wishes and I hope this year will be filled with more and more happiness for us :)

So, how's your new year's eve? Well, well, mine is good. Fine. Not bad. But, to be honest, a lil bit boring. Tanya kenapaaaa?

gue taun baruan sama bocah keponakan2 (whose aunt is me. tante2 bho gueee) kesayangan plus bersama nenek2 mereka (yang udah mulai kembali ke masa kanak2), gue merasa satu2nya yang harus jagain mereka.. misalnya, kalo nyokap gue--atau tante2 yang lain- minta tolong apaa gitu, gue ga mungkin dengan teganya nyuruh bocah2 itu melaksanakan permintaan mereka dong, mereka masih kecil! mereka masih terlalu hijau! terus, bisa juga kalo bocah2 itu udah mulai lari2an, minta ditemenin mancing, minta tolong nyalain lilin buat kembang-api-an, bla bla bla udah pasti gue yang dimintain tolong..
yah, bagaimana lagi.. (theme song: lagu2 akustik mellow yang jadi backsound orang curhat di radio2 kesayangan Anda)
pekerjaan saya menjadi dobel menggantikan si mbak ina yang bekerja di dapur, saya harus bangun pagi dan mendengarkan semuaa permintaan tuan2 muda itu.. daripada bapak sama ibu marahin saya sama ina, saya memang harus menjalankan pekerjaan mulia ini. harus.(yak, music director, tolong theme song nya diganti!)

yaaaaah begitulah, kenyataan nya gue ga punya rencana kemana2 sama teman2 juga (dan ga ada yang ngajak, sedihnya :'( ) yowess lah saya nikmati permulaan tahun ini dengan tahun baruan a la bocah.

here are some photos :

farhan

nurul & fajar

ramean

pretty exciting, but yeah.. still very very childish. people said, "lumayan daripada lu manyuuun," ho ho ;)

I'll say it once again :

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
it's about New Skin.
what's your opinion about my new skin, well.. I didn't make this, but I just want to know whether this one is the better or worse then the last one.

sebenernya gue lebih suka tampilan yang sebelumnya, udah gue ngeditnya setengah mati pula.. tapi postingan gue jadi susah dibaca dan ga asyik banget lah. hh, ini buat sementara aja sih.. rencananya liburan panjaaang abis urusan2 universitas (OH MY GOD gue belom belajar) nanti, gue mau belajar bikin skin sendiri heheee semoga aja bisa bikin yang oke (sok baaanget).

okay then, I have to go to sleep if I don't want to be late tomorrow (for since tomorrow, school starts at six thirty, it means.. thirty minutes earlier!) and I'll go to school by bus (maan). Of course, I don't want to be late at my first day after this loooong holiday.. no, no, I didn't looking for somebody at school (nobody wants to know about it, rin) but I missed my best best buddies sooooo much!

Aw! Besok ada Mr. Walaaaaaaay aw man aw man harus ambil buku, siapin baju olahraga, siapin mental bangun subuh lagi, dan ga lupa siapin fisik karena guru olahraga gue itu atlet coooy! (sedikit bohong deng)

See you at another post, if I have time to make one. :'(
Oh I missed this whole bolgosphere--posting, playing with codes, blogwalking, and so on-

PR dari si NISA

2008-12-30T10:49:00.003+07:00

this is the rules :

1. take a recent photo of yourself or take a picture of yourself right now
2. don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair, just take a picture
3. post the picture with no editing
4. post this instruction with your picture
5. tag 10 people to do this

aduh aduh, gue seperti dikejar hutang kalo ga ngerjain pr ini, entah kenapa zz (padahal yang nyuruh aja udah lupa mungkin haha)

FYI itu foto beler baru bangun tidur banget.. -_-

nah, saya sudah tidak berhutang. yes !

new skin, what do you think?

2008-12-22T00:52:00.003+07:00

hey bloggers,
I'm about to change my blog's skin. How's that?

Well, it doesn't mean that I don't like this one.. but I don't know why I just want to change it.
Hum, let me take a sec to think twice. Okay, I got the answer and it's a NO.
I totally forgot what would happened if I had to change my blog skin, it would be a loooong day and there's no sleep at night. The test is coming, I had to keep my body's health at a good condition nowadays, and I had to work it up so when the day is come I can give my best. (So, what's the point of the title, by the way?)

Okay, another question is..
what if I add this blog at my facebook?
I'd like to let my friends know what I'm up to, what I wanted to say but I can't say it out loud, and so on. But, because it's too teenagers and childish.. I don't know why I don't feel it's a good idea to let my siblings read my words. (?)

Oh well, I'm about to change my writing kind of way later.. I still have to dealing with books and books. (that's why I still updating my facebook, it still has a book-word on it, right? ho ho)

There's still looong way to go, my friends.
I miss blogging, I miss all of my friends here.

I'll be back as soon as I can, and
wish me luck :')

2008-12-06T20:23:00.003+07:00

love, oh love

when i turn my head around,
what i see is

love.

my family is my love ones,
my friends is my love ones too..

but,
why am i feel that something's missing ?

i turn my head again,
oh there are a lot of lovebirds around me..

hmm, my hearts hurting,
my eyes burning,
did they bring me back to my memories?

back to those hurting, stupid, unwanted
memories of my some kind of love-like feelings..
for him.

i've been in love,
and it doesn't make me happy.

i've been there,
i've been hurting,
i've been crying,
i've been sick,

yes,
i've been
in
love.

i hate it,
i hate the fact that i've been there,
hurting,
crying,
sick,
just because one person.

that one person,
i've been in love for years.

i like love,
i didn't hate love,
but for being there again,
falling for love again..

i would say,

"no, not for now.. no, thank's.

i would fall for love,

if there's somebody whom with his love could make me love him whole-heartedly.

then, please love..
don't leave me in the darkness again,
like what you've been doing to me now"

my dream is too high?
maybe.

never mind waiting too long than hurting too long.
i believe someday he'd come.
whenever it would be,
soon or still someday in the future.

never mind waiting,
but please be sure you'd come,
my destiny.

(i'm freaking lonely, didn't I? haha
actually i'm about seeing somebody, but then i remember how does it feel when i was in love.
oh yeah i remember clearly, that it was a disaster.
did love hates me?
oh dear, how could it be.
i just can say i like him,
but i'm scared enough to say i'm in love.
he doesn't know me, so do i..
what makes me feel this way to somebody that i didn't know well?
dunno.
hmm, i decided to let my feelings flew.
it would end in seconds, i supposed.
oh love, how could you being so not nice to me?
people say falling in love is a gift,
could you show me that it's true?
or it just some kind of jokes?

what the freak, rin.

forget it, guys.
i'm desperate enough imagine my high school prom night..
so i think of things,
then those things lead me writing of these freakish things.
don't bother.)

OH my OH my, SIBUK

2008-11-28T21:46:00.002+07:00

ngga ngga, gue bukan sok sibuk.. tapi akhir2 ini hidup gue HECTIC abis.

gue gatau kenapa, dari semua kelas 3 yang gue alami yang paling repot adalah kelas 3 SMA. hhh
mulai dari nyiapin ulangan semester, ujian nasional, UAS, ujian praktek.. ga lupa satu bonus ujian yang buat gue sama dengan ujian penentu kehidupan gue di masa depan nanti :

SNMPTN. oh gosh.
ga lupa, satu lagi yang lebih deket..

SIMAK UI.
lo simak baik2 ya, SIMAK UI akan di adakan pada tanggal 1 Maret 2009. SATU maret, kenapa juga harus SATU banget. AAAAAKH

dengan begitu dekat nya para ujian2 itu,
gue mau ga mau juga harus persiapan ekstrrrra, BTA lah, bikin PR sendiri lah (biasanya mah lirak lirik selaw aja, sekarang udah tobat demi lulus SMA)..

waktu buat maen tuh hampir ga ada banget,
aduuuh tuh kan, dikejar waktu lagi..

ini masih belom bisa menggambarkan betapa gue harus menjaga diri dari godaan internet yang mengerikan!

ga jelas ya? maaf ya kawan2..
makasih ya buat chikong atas comment nya buat foto gue, omong2 itu gue pake pocket camera biasa kok.. Olympus FE-340.. hehe

(to be continued)

morning, evening

2008-10-11T07:46:00.009+07:00

photo updates !
P.S = click for bigger view, thank's

ohayou, minna-san

the sun saying "Good Morning" :-)

Location : Pamulang
Taken by : astarini
Camera : Olympus FE-340
Date : October, 9, 2008

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Good Evening,

the moon is peeking us
;)

Location : Pamulang
Taken by : astarini
Camera : Olympus FE-340
Date : October, 10, 2008

2008-10-09T17:55:00.005+07:00

if there's no one understands you,
where can you run into?

if you try your best for someone,
but the one just can't understand, that
you're on the way..
how could you tell that person?

now, I'm running..

I fell every second,
yet still trying to stand up again, and again.

could you please,
understand me..

or am I the one to be blame?

I do it for you,
every single of hardwork,
I present it for you..

could you please,
just sit and relax..

I'm doing it, Mom.
I'm doing it.

Just,
let me do this on my way.

Let me be..

I promise you,
Just for this time..

Please, understand me..
I'm begging you.
:'(

okay, gue agak basi..

2008-10-07T19:51:00.005+07:00

ga mau panjang lebar.. dan memang ga perlu panjang lebar juga sih,
lo semua pasti udah ampe bosen sama
Disney Channel Original Movie :
"Camp Rock"

gue di sini, cuma mau berbagi video di bawah ini aja..
karena review gue sedikit banyak sepaham sama dia.
weheehhehee..

he he he
:D

blogwalking pengganti mudik

2008-10-03T20:05:00.003+07:00

aduh aduh, gue lagi seneng blogwalking nih.. ternyata seru juga keliling2 blog orang. tapi satu kendala terberat adalah mata gue agak2 kurang tahan di depan monitor komputer kelamaan. jadi pusing2 ga jelas gitu..
yah, gara2 gue keasyikan muter-muter di dunia per-blog-an, jadilah gue sedikit melupakan nge-post di blog sendiri hehe.

kemaren2 gue baru ikutan jadi member rumahblogger.com .. terus, dari sana banyak blogger2 yang blog nya seru dan canggih2.. lah gue? awam wam wam (ngeeek) yah gapapa lah, selaw ol bes. Sebagai anak baru, kayaknya gue udah bikin onar deh di sana.. gue seenaknya aja ngepost topik yang udah dibahas sebelumnya, maklum, gue ga tau kalo topik itu udah pernah dibahas.. dan gue yang dodol baru ngeliat ada search engine di sana.. Maap yak, wahai para pengurus rumahblogger, aku memang anak baru yang pengacau! aku memang liar! GRRRAAAKH (perlahan2 berubah wujud jadi monster)

oke oke, kembali ke wujud normal.

banyak hal baru deh setelah berkunjung ke mana-mana.. gue udah tau sih kalo ngepost jaman sekarang bisa pake emoticon, tapi gue ngakak banget ngeliat emoticon yang ga biasa banget di blog benazio cursor nya aja pake kepala dia (adooh). terus gue jadi kepengen kan tuh pake2 emoticon, EH baru inget.. gue kan gaptekos, jadi gue cuma mengandalkan mukjizat. comment di blog gue aja baru bisa muncul sekarang.. gue udah googling ampe bego, nyari code sampe juling, EH ternyata di settings nya emang HIDE gitu. (stress, namun apakah Anda mengerti maksud saya?) AH, pokoknya pusing banget lah.

kembali ke jalan2..
gue paling sering ke blognya Raditya Dika, agak2 ngepens gimana gitu deh. hoho. terus pas gue ke sana, ternyata di postnya dia bilang kalo dia bikin lagu baru, liriknya dipajang di sana. penasaran, gue ke myspace-nya aja. menurut gue lagunya, enyaaak :) kata2nya juga bagus, singkat tapi penuh makna. pokoknya Anda-Anda semua harus denger sendiri! gue kan baru tau ya, Radit bikin lagu juga.. dan basi'an banget, lagunya udah ada 5 gitu (zzz). lagu2nya lumayan kok, (bukan belagu) tapi buat gue emang ada beberapa lagu yang harus di denger berkali2 baru bisa enak di kuping.. gatau sih kalo orang lain gimana. Pokoknya dengerin dulu semuanya, kalo gue sih SUKA banget yang 'Selamanya', 'Atas Sikapmu', sama 'Jangan Kembali'.
gue mau download tapi gabisa, hiks :'( entah kenapa masuknya jadi file .tmp, ada yang tau mengapa bisa begitu?

oh iya, ada yang suka iseng2 nonton dorama? yah, oleh-oleh lainnya dari keliling blog orang, gue jadi nemu link dorama banyak gilak. gue nemu blog nya di blog Kak Nanien (oh enggak, dia bukan kaka gue.. tapi sepertinya dia yang mahasiswa lebih tua dari gue? jadilah gue bubuhkan Kak di sana) sekarang gue lagi nonton Nurse Aoi, entah kenapa.. gue nangis banjir lagi. ini gue yang cengeng apa bagemana yak?

oh well, I'm a lil' bit jealous with all of you who did some vacations back to your hometown.. pasti asyik kan, bisa poto2 di kampung halaman. huhu pengen.. berhubung sodara2 udah pada di jakarta semua, jadi mau mudik kemana lagi? ke Sulawesi? hmm, kalo ke sana ga cukup cuma 3 hari.. ke Cirebon? kaka gue kerja bho, tolong.. IRRI aku, IRRRII !

Pokoknya, yang pada mudik, awas aja kalo ga bawa oleh-oleh! (ngancem, padahal ngiri)

baiklah,
bagi yang bernasib sama kayak gue, silahkan aja ikutin apa yang udah gue jalankan selama lebaran ini.. siapa tau hari lo terasa lebih baik. (sok banget lu, rin)

Lights Solfegio

2008-10-03T19:09:00.001+07:00

"Lights Solfegio"
--click for larger view--
taken by : me
date : September, 28th 2008
location : somewhere along the way home (i forgot, sorry)

I'm about trying something new with my pingku (which is my lovely digicam, she's my besties now). I took a lots of photo with her, and I found this.

kenapa juga harus pake istilah solfegio?
karena.. cahaya2 yang goyang itu, ketangkep dan berwujud jadi kayak not balok di mata gue.
hehehe jadi sok2 pake istilah solfegio deh ;p

silahkan liat temen2nya di DA-ku.. (promosi)
thank's :D

Plus-Plus Laskar Pelangi

2008-09-30T18:35:00.006+07:00

ini poto2 yang gue sukaaaaa banget, ini udah gue save jadi ga langsung ke url nya.. jadi gue kasih url (sumbernya) aja ya. nih diaaaa!

ini foto yang paling inspiratif buat gue

what a great view..

bunga seroja by verrys yamarno (Mahar)
LOL

semua gue dapet dari http://www.flickr.com/photos/laskarpelangi/
mau tau lebih baaaanyak lagi tentang "behind the scene Laskar Pelangi the movie"? silahkan ke : http://www.laskarpelangithemovie.blogspot.com/
semua ada di sana!
daaan ini blognya Andrea Hirata : http://www.sastrabelitong.multiply.com/ !

selamat menikmati!

Laskar Pelangi The Movie

2008-09-29T23:49:00.004+07:00

gue tadinya mau ngabahas "Laskar Pelangi The Movie" abes2an, nah gue lagi nyari yang di KickAndy nya kan, ternyata orang MetroTVnya belom ng-upload. agak kesel gue, tapi apeu leh dikateu, orang2 nak mudik lebaran.. (logat melayu maksa, orang2 melayu mohon maaf kan aku)

back to the Hot-Blog-Topic (semua orang--banyak orang, maksudnya-- ngomongin ini di blognya masing2, tolong ya, gue gamau kalah eksis --hoek--)

ini posternya

liat alamnya, keren abis

karna gue bukan kritikus film, jadi gue gabisa nyela2 kekurangan di film ini.. gue kurang ngerti. tapi kalo diminta pendapat sebagai penikmat, hmm gue kasih 4 JEMPOL buat Miles Prod.! (coba gue alien yang jarinya, bisa gue kasih lebih dari 4 jempol)

ckck, untung lah gue dateng tinggal balenggang doang, tiket udah diantriin sama kaka sepupu gue --kurang ajar-- sepanjang jalan, kaka sepupu gue udah ngomel2 aja tuh nanyain gue dimana, plus cerita2 kalo antriannya sepanjang2 apaan tau. udah gitu, yang nonton kebanyakan bocah2 SMP --yang merasa ga g4o3L kalo ga nonton. astaghfirulloh rini, jangan suudzon!--. sambil menikmati lengangnya jalanan Pondok Cabe, gue mendengarkan celotehan kaka sepupu gue dengan kalem.

sesampainya gue di bilangan Pondok Indah, gue semakin deg2an. memang, untuk Andrea Hirata, gue punya perasaan khusus. tentunya, perasaan khusus dan spesial. orang gue pernah bela2in nonton dia secara live di acara bookfair di senayan, udah lupa kapan yang gue inget jelas.. demi nonton dia dari jarak lumayan deket, gue rela duduk setengah pantat sampe selesai. MEN, pantat gue pegel2 ga ketulungan setelah acara itu. tapi tak mengapa, semangat dan motivasi gue selalu terpompa, ga ada kata patah arang, yang ada cuma Semangat! dengan sekedar mengingat2 kalo gue udah pernah ngeliat secara langsung, idola gue yang mengidolakan Bang Roma. Andrea Hirata, beneran contoh nyata untuk semua pemimpi Indonesia agar jangan menyerah, tulus, dan tetep harus HAUS sama ilmu. Hidup Bang Ikal! (hiduuuup!)

lah lah, jadi ngaco lagi kan gue. hadooh.

kembali ke film. cerita dipersingkat sampai gue duduk di dalam Studio 1, 21 Pondok Indah. sialannya, sebelah gue orang pacaran. bukan sirik, bukan apa nich, tapi menurut gue mereka salah pilih film. abisan, selama setengah film mereka tuh pacaran ga keruan, jelas2 film yang kita tonton tuh berusaha menyampaikan pesan untuk dicerna, eeh dia malah nonton sambil pacaran. heran. ga asyik ah.
berusaha memalingkan muka, gue terus menikmati film dengan khusyu.

seinget gue, gue kalo nonton film tuh emang ga punya urat malu buat nangis di bioskop. jadi jangan ajak gue nonton film yang sarat makna, apalagi laskar pelangi, kalo gamau dikira abis bikin nangis anak orang. apalagi gue nontonnya sama kaka sepupu gue yang sama aja deh sama gue, heehhehe bedanya dia udah dewasaan lah.. udah punya 'malu' istilahnya jadi nangisnya cuma setetes doang. hmm, air mata gue? ga kalah banjir sama pas nonton AAC. gue menghayati film dengan sangat sangat sangat detil, kalo gue gasalah, di awal2 film aja gue udah nangis. ckck, emang dasar gue lebay.

okay, okay.. daritadi gue hanya menceritakan cerita tentang "gue yang nonton film", ini dia ulasan gue tentang filmnya. sekali lagi, gue tekankan, gue bukan kritikus handal. anggap ini opini pembaca di surat kabar :

belom ada film adaptasi yang bikin gue puas, Harry Potter aja masih banyak kekurangannya. menurut gue, beneran MiLes udah TOP banget. semoga prestasi ini dipertahankan, kalau bisa ditingkatkan buat Sang Pemimpi. eh iya, sebenernya ada satu yang bikin gue penasaran, taikong hamim dkk! semoga bisa liat mereka di Sang Pemimpi.

Salut, Miles Prod.

Semangat Film Indonesia!

WARNING
PLEASE BANGET JANGAN DI UPLOAD DI YOUTUBE,
terlalu bodoh buat nonton film ini di youtube memang,
tapi gue entah kenapa ga rela.

bukan hanya khayal yang kelamaan

2008-09-28T12:56:00.004+07:00

Bila Kuingat - Lingua

"Bila Kuingat"
LINGUA

hmm, adooh gue buru2 ini sebenernya.. tapi gimana doong mau ngepost nih, kebelet!
huaha

ini lagu sangat amat jadul,
maap ya, mungkin gue termasuk adik2 yang sangat tunduk sama kaka sehingga lambat laun sadar kalo sebenernya gue terjebak sama lagu2 doyanan kaka gue. dasar.
karena jaman2 kaka gue begajulan tuh era '97-an (kali yak?), dan lagunya emang sendu2, santai2, easylistening gimana gitu.. jadilah gue gangerti lagu2 jaman sekarang yang jedag-jedug yoyoyooo. hh, sungguh tuanya diriku.

masalah radio pun begitu, dulu waktu kaka gue demen bener sama PramborsFM gue juga demen.. sekarang dia jadi pendengar setia GMHS (Good Morning Hardrockers Show, penyiarnya si Panji dan Steny) dan Drive and Jive --Iwet sama Rahma*bener ga?*, + kaka gue seriiiing banget iseng2 berhadiah sms ke sana tiap kali ada topik. heran..

selain itu, sekarang kan dia yang nyetir. DAN sebagai pengemudi pun ia menggunakan hak vetonya untuk masalah radio station yang kita dengerin. gue, selayaknya orang Indonesia tulen yang gapunya hak veto, gue pun hanya ambil andil sebagai adik yang gemar mengalah. dan sesungguhnya orang penyabar itu disayang Tuhan, amin.

oh ya oh ya,
sebenernya semua ini bersangkutan.
masalah lagu jadul ini, yang lagu kedemenan kaka gue.
gue denger lagi di HardRockFM, yang notabene juara di hati kaka gue.

hmmmm, sebenernya gue mo ngebahas lagu, atau ngebahas jiwa kemusikan gue yang tertinggal jauh di tahun '97-an, dimana gue waktu itu masih ingusan duduk di bangku SD yang harusnya cuma tau makan bekal bukannya dengerin PramborsFM yang radio yang Kawula Muda bukan radionya Adik-adik Cilik Sekalian? hmmmm, bingung.
sungguh membingungkan.

yah, daripada mengganggu selera pendengar. kali ini kita potong saja pembicaraan kali ini, kita bahas secara tuntas tentang masalah kejiwaan (astaghfirulloh) ini lain kali. karna kebetulan saya juga buru2 ini (sok sibuk).

"Baiklah, para pendegar yang budiman.. selamat mendengarkan."
(baca : emang emang, cita2 kaka gue emang jadi penyiar, dan sekali lagi, gue pun juga jadi pengen wekweeewwwww)

2008-09-24T16:21:00.001+07:00

okay, another post about this DIANA issue.

my mother and my sister never let me buy this camera.
why can't they just let me be?
hhhhhhh :(

adooh, gimana caranya dooong supaya gue bisa beli kamera itu tanpa harus adu mulut sama mama dan kakaku yang ughhhhh :(

seandainya...
seandainya ada yang baca post ini dan tertarik bantu rini..
seandainyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

rini tau, kemaren rini baru aja patungan beli digicam.
tapi kalo rini telat buat tau ada diana dreamer ini, terus gimana?
dibilang serakah sih, ya mungkin.
kalo emang gamau bayarin, yaudah rini nabung juga kok!
lagian kalo akhirnya kamera nya cuma didiemin doang, biar rini tau rasa sendiri.
kesseeeeeel :((((((

tapi, emang sih diana dreamer belom ada di indonesia.
tapi seandainya ada,
ga ada kata ngga lagi!

duuuh, diana dreamer segeralah datang ke indonesiaaaaaaaa :'(

tolonglah, mampir liat si diana yang bisa diratapi dalam sendu :'(
bagi yang baik hati mau ngasih kado, karna gamungkin gue beli sendiri terhalang oleh banyak perintang, tolooong.. buat kado 5 taun juga gue rela.. beneran!

http://images.bambamcuaps.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SNiiSgoKCpYAAEYct3Y1/hhh.jpg?et=GQUey4LtIyxAvuxQnOMxjQ&nmid=0

thanks :')

at last, i made it

2008-09-23T23:39:00.002+07:00

akhirnya ini background keganti juga.
tapi gue jadi gabisa ngepost panjang2 kali ini.
gue harus tidur nich, biasa deeh mommy udah cuaps2. hehe
gimanaaa? bagusan yang mana nih kira2?
hihihi
yah, selamat nge-blogwalking deh semuanya!

ahh, kangen ngedit

2008-09-23T15:47:00.006+07:00

"Sing Along Whenever"
photo by : Madongsky
Accessories : my own uniform, mesar's headphone
Editted by : astarini (me)

ini foto yang ngambil si MADONG. ahaha..
gue yang lagi serius2 bikin tugas, eh dia panggil2 terus akhirnya jadilah foto candid ini.
sebenernya sih ga candid2 amat, biasa deh gue.. sadar kamera.. walaupun cacat juga akhirnya. wekwewww

udah lamaaaa banget sejak ngedit terakhir kali..
hmmm, bisa dibilang udah hampir setahun kali ya?
setaun kemaren, komputer gue ngadat gara2 gue memory nya gue abisin buat foto2 narsis-najis gue dan kaka gue *yang gamau ngaku. tapi lebih tepatnya sih, abis gara2 gue sukaaa banget ngedit poto pake Adobe Photoshop.

EH, jadinya malah ngambek deh komputer gue.
gue pun beralih ke laptop kaka gue, tapi! dia ngelarang gue nyimpen foto banyak2. yaudah gue males. mending gausah sekalian.

setelah di cuekin beberapa lama, kaka gue pun berinisiatif benerin PC gue. di apdet lah si PC dengan segala elemen kehidupan yang baru.
TAPI, semuaaaaaaa foto2 gue ILANG.
ga ada photoshop. boro2 deh, MS. Office aja sampe sekarang ga ada. ngeeek.

rehat sesaat bikin gue kangen,
akhirnya kemaren gue menemukan tempat buat ngedit foto secara online.
pertamanya, gue nyoba di Photobucket.com, tapi kurang asyik akhirnya gue pindah ke Picnik.com dan ternyata lebih asyik dan lebih banyak komponen nya! hehehe

jadilah 2 pic editan gue,
pertama : ini nih, organizer ini, yang jadi background image ini.
kedua : foto yang diatas itu.

maap yak, kalo menurut lo dodol.
namanya juga hobi, bukan untuk didalami.

art is just the BEST way to let my feelings OUT.
i don't know what else could make me feel better.
what i mean by art is include : image, picture, music, sketch, photography, etc.

I need a vacation.
hmm, ada yang berminat hunting foto ga ya?
pengen nyari temen asik2an deh.
just tell me, okay! :-)

the conclusion of the day

2008-09-22T23:36:00.007+07:00

I want to fly,
freely.

I just want all to be fine,
that's that.

But why not everythings are that simple?

I simply just want to fly,
with my balloons
up in the sky, high

"Hello, star. I just come up to say :
I'm here to reach you, finally"

Oh, my lovely star..
how long have you been waiting for me?
Would you please,
wait me for a little longer?

For now, I'm a messed up one
just believe me, and
pray for me

There's a time I'll awake,
with no problems, and no worries

I'll JUMP,
I'll FLY,
straight to where you are!

let me sleep a lil while,
and get ready, dear
I'll run and never trying to stop.

It's a promise,
from me to you
Wish me the Very-Best-Of-Luck
:-)

third post, in the same day

2008-09-22T23:06:00.004+07:00

i don't know why i couldn't stop to posting today..
i just feel like,

i need a place to rest my head.
i need to share.

like i told you before, i'm in a war against my future.
i don't want to be a loser, yet i did what losers do.
unfortunately, i don't have someone to lean my soul.

The One which I know I'll always have, is just Allah swt.
but, I'm just one of the common people..
I'm weak, I'm lost
Just runaway, and my tears can't stop burning my cheek..

it's pretty hard here,
no one could ever make me smile, except God
and nothing could make me even stronger, but Allah swt.

still,
I'm a "human",
sometimes I'm out of the proper system.

I need a way back to You, God
lead me come back home
:'(

mamam. dasar si bego.

2008-09-22T12:09:00.001+07:00

guess what? gue ngepost dari sekolah! wekweww

parah, dari pagi gue kerjaannya molor seharian.
kesel sendiri.
temen2 gue pada belajar, gue tidur..
pada nggosip, gue molor..

mau jadi apa gue?

pelajaran matematika, tadi gue ngapain?
yak, tidur.
ngga program linier, ngga baris/deret..
gue kagak ngarti.

nanti pas UB2 menjelang,
gue MAMAM aja sendiri

:'(

oh God, help me please please

P.S : jangan lupa cari lagu QUEEN yang "Don't stop me now" sama "We are the champion"
Ayo, bok. Bangun ah.

BIG !

2008-09-22T04:45:00.000+07:00

i'm about doing something challenging now.
really hope it goes well.
pray for me, would you? ;-)

bismillah, and wish me LUCK !

this playlist really does works for me

2008-09-20T17:55:00.000+07:00

belakangan ini gue sering ngerasa down dan streessss sendiri, ga boong.

dan di masa2 stress gue, kakak gue dengan seenaknya masang2 lagu Viva La Vidanya Coldplay di sebelah tempat tidur gue. kenceng2 banget lagi masangnya..
tapi, setelah intro nya kedengeran kok gue jadi naksir? huehehe in my opinion, the beat really fit my stress-head rhythm. jadilah pala gue angguk2 asyik, berlanjut joget2 gajelas. kakak gue pun hanya diam.

alhasil, tingkat stress gue menurun dengan hanya mendengar lagu itu.. oh tidak lupa, ditambah makan dengan napsu badak liar kesetanan. (ups)
okay, kembali ke topik pembicaraan kali ini..

let me show you the list, and the reason for each song :

Coldplay - Viva La Vida : i've told you the reason above
Corinne Bailey Rae - Put Your Records On : i always love her, i'm a huge fan of Corinne Bailey Rae.
Rihanna - Take A Bow : kemaren gue liat vclipnya di imeem, dan gue pun terobsesi buat ngikutin gayanya dia di vclip itu depan kaca (my brand-new hobby,huekekkk), well in fact it made me feel better :p . akhirnya lagunya pun terngiang.
Sind3ntosca - Kepompong : menyenangkan, dan sedikit 'kena' buat gue. apalagi gue denger lagu ini bersamaan dengan baca perahu kertas (i'll tell you bout this incredible novel later on, because I want to deliver it perfectly. It really is a touching, and deep story). tapi karena nadanya riang, gue pun memilih untuk riang sajaaaaaa ;)
Project Pop - Bukan Superstar : ga bisa berhenti ketawa pas ngeliat v-clipnya, can't wait to see their performance for our GK, maybe.
Special Track, you won't regret for listen it, trust me ;p : I sang it way better (or worse) than her, esp. when she sing "katakan.. katakan..". huaahhaha, geli ya? huahaha gapapa lah yang penting membawa gelak tawa buat menguapkan stress!

so, is this playlist works for your stressed day?
or, otherwise it make your mood even worse? (please don't)

however, it works on me.
if you still feel not in the mood for anything now, you can find your own playlist,
or
tell me what song which could make you feel good, maybe it brings a better impact for me
:)

thank's for reading this post, buddy!

i can't spell it out, for you

2008-09-19T00:27:00.000+07:00

Colbie Caillat Lyrics
Realize Lyrics

these which made me freezed :

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you.

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It's not all the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it too.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It would be the same for you.

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my mouth could shut,
my eyes could cry,
but my heart couldn't lie

hard reality, now just let it be.

actually, I'm telling myself to
let him be

i miss you

2008-09-19T00:13:00.000+07:00

we're far,
I'm up here, twinkling
you're down there, changing

I see your smile,
I feel your pain,
you could see my tear fall with yours..

how come we went up like this..

I've been here, always..
could you please, realize?

I miss you, so much.
we're best-friend, aren't we?

:')

i got the picture from google.com

"Hmm, kamu -3 ya," Mr.W said

2008-09-16T23:19:00.000+07:00

Hari ini, pagi rini mulai dengan baik.. senang riang layaknya lagu kondang andalan Sherina (yang sering dipake Raditya Dika).
Sama sekali ga terlintas di kepala ini, beberapa waktu ke depan aib rini akan terungkap di depan khalayak umum.

Yah, kembali ke pagi hari yang indah tadi..
Pagi di hari Senin dalam hidup rini identik dengan pelajaran olahraga sejak kelas 2 SMA.
Semenjak masuk kelas 3 ini, guru olahraga kita ganti dari yang baik-namun-santai, ke baik-namun-kekar (sebut saja Mr.W)
Dulu sih, denger2 dari kicauan senior, emang Mr.W selalu mengontrol berat badan siswa apalagi siswi..
akan tiba waktunya dia ngajak kita berhadapan dengan timbangan (dimana timbangan adalah salah satu benda yang bikin rini eneg) terus kita disuruh nimbang berat badan kita di depan dia, dan di depan ANAK2 SEKELAS (ampun).

please ya, nimbang berat badan adalah suatu kegiatan yang uggghhhhhhhhhh kalo bisa NGGA kenapa harus IYA. bukan masalah bagi Anda2 yang berpostur proporsional tinggi semampai berdiri di pinggiran pantai sambil rambut melambai2 (baca: model lagi pemotretan di pantai), dan bukan masalah bagi Anda2 yang kekurusan (karena yang namanya NAIKIN berat badan adalah masalah sepele, kawan.. SEPELE!).

Masalahnya adalah, bayangkan Anda sedang di hadapkan ke depan botol atau toples YANG BULET DAN BANTET ya kalo perlu labu erlenmeyer sekalian, coba itu toples dipakaikan baju barbie atau boneka Susan, terserah Anda. Di bagian leher botol/toples kasih boneka bola sebesar kepalan tangan, jangan lupa cari wig keriting yang pas buat si boneka toples. Sudahkah terbayang?
Apabila berhasil membayangkan dengan baik dan benar, akan terlihat boneka toples bantet ga lupa berambut keriting. Gimana? Kebayang? NAH kira2 gitu deh postur rini. sekarang coba aja timbang itu boneka toples nya, yang ada baru mau jalan selangkah, toplesnya ngambek dan pecah seketika (apa dah?)
Dari alibi inilah, bagi rini yang namanya nimbang it's a big NO, NO!

Karena kelas2 lain udah pada disuruh nimbang dari jaman awal2 masuk, rini pikir "Ah, aman.. kelas kita ga pernah disuruh nimbang" dan dengan belagunya makan sesuka hati dan napsu ga dipelihara. Sampai akhirnya, datanglah hari ini..

Hari ini yang awannya cantik, dan langit pun biru cerah..
Hari ini yang PRnya udah hampir semua terselesaikan..
Hari ini yang adalah awal dari minggu yang riang..

Namun tak terelakkan lagi,
Hari Nimbang Bersama Mr.W pun tiba.

Okay, sebenernya sih rini ga se-alergi itu sama yang namanya nimbang.. dan ga segila itu buat makan seliar badak. Minggu lalu, rini sama pite (baca: teman sebangku yang mukanya sungguh sensual, sangat mengerikan duduk sama dia. jangan coba2, beneran!) udah nimbang di sekolah juga, dan berat rini turun (dikit). Syukron, Ya Fahri..

TAPI, bahaya yang sesungguhnya itu datang dari temen2 rini yang bilang : "Iya, masa Mr.W nyuruh si Anu turun 5 kilo. gilaaaaa apalagi gue???", atau "huaaa gue disuruh nambah tinggi, gimana dong riiin", atau "iya, rin, gue disuruh turun 6 kilo" dengan ekspresi lemah lesu, ada lagi yang minta dijejelin lemak "adoooooh gue disuruh naikin berapa niiih?!", atau sekedar "Oh, kata dia gue BT (bertahan : gausah naikin gausah kurangin"

LAH GUE si BONEKA TOPLES BANTET KERITING apa kabar nyahh ??!
boro2 sempet nimbang, timbangannya udah keburu rusak duluan kali pas rini mendekat,

Reka Adegan
satu langkah pertama mendekati timbangan: Timbangan said "AAAAH ada bahaya mendekaaaaaaaamku!"
langkah selanjutnya : Timbangan said "Masya Allah, gimana dengan nasib saya setelah si bantet naikin saya bisa ko'it niiich! padahal Dian Sastro belom pernah nimbang di sayaaaa" [lo jayus dah 'mbang]
selanjutnya : .... (timbangan collapse)
rini pun naik ke atas timbangan.
Mr.W : "Hmm, berat kamu XX kilo ya?" memperhatikan badan gue sejenak dan..
rini : "gemana pak?" dag dig dug mampus aja kalo disuruh turun 10 kilo dengan tenggang waktu sampe lebaran, LU aja gih.. aduuuh emaaaak
Mr.W : "Hmm, oke. Kamu -3 aja."
rini : "alhamdulillah.." LE to the GA, TAPI
Mr.W : "Eh, eh.." memperhatikan lagi
rini : "..." swt
Mr.W : "tapi kalo kamu bisa turun 5 malah lebih bagus"
rini : menyeka keringat, "Oke Pak! saya akan berusaha!"
Mr.W : "ya ya ya, Yak! selanjutnya!"
rini pun turun dari timbangan..
akhirnya timbangan siuman dan entah kabarnya sampai detik ini. belum, dan tidak bisa dipastikan. ini misteri.

begitulah..
hari ini telah tiba, Hari Nimbang Bersama Mr.W..
dan beralih dari napsu makan liar, semua masih bisa diterima jaringan syaraf rini.. dan terlepas sudah beban itu.

sekarang tinggal melepas beban nyata,
yang goyang2 di bagian lengan kalo lagi dadah2in orang,
yang bikin perut buncit kayak ibu hamil,
yang kayak botol di bawah dengkul bagian belakang,
semua adalah LEMAK

dan demi keselamatan mental di hari nimbang selanjutnya,

let's go DIET-ing !
(bahasa indonesia yang di inggriskan)

terlahir kembali

2008-09-07T00:06:00.000+07:00

haaaaaaaahaaha ini blog yang bener2 terlantaaar.. aduh kesian amat yak..
aku janji, mulai sekarang aku urusin deh biar pun sesekali..
tapi aku mau bikin ini jadi blog buat cerpen2 aja aaah..
paling jayusan yang ada, udah pasti ngeview gabakal nyampe 100 viewers wekekekkk bodo aaaah ;p

SIP! sembari mengisi waktu yang sesungguhnya sangat tidak senggang (maklum, ada UN dan SPMB di depan mata) tapi gapapa, refreshing itu perlu! YA, sangat perlu.

Baik, Baik, Baik..
mari kita berceritaaaaaa :-)

Anak Baru

2008-06-22T12:12:00.000+07:00

Assalamualaikum ! ( a la abang-none Jakarte)
Hey, hey all of you bloggers.. here comes a new kid on the blog. Hmm, blog ini bisa dibilang agak rancu ya statusnya sebagai blog pertama ataukah ternyata adalah blog ke 2 yang pernah saya bikin.. Soalnya, gue juga punya blog di Friendster, Multiply, dan My Personal Web (ayo mari dikunjungi, masih sepi sih soalnya.. ramaikan doongs haha). Tapi percaya deh, yang di Multiply cuma ZONK belaka.
Jadi begini awalnya, gue kan beli GoGirl! yang bulan juni ini.. terus ketemu artikel yang berhasil bikin gue begadang 2 malem berturut2 (Ah, bodohnyaa), yaitu : Holiday Projects, Internet Buff. Seru sih, boleh juga bagi yang tertarik sama artikel itu buat di ikutin. Tapi saran gue adalah, mulailah bekerja dari siang, jangan dari sore atau bahkan maghrib apalagi malem. Karena membuat web tidaklah semudah yang digambarkan oleh artikel itu! (atau gue yang salah tanggap?) Kalo lo tetep kekeuh mau mulai malem2, siap-siap bernasib kayak gue lah.. : Mata Bengep (baca : mata berkantung, ada lingkar hitam di bagian bawah mata, yah mirip2lah sama mata kodok). Setelah gue selesai bikin web, ada satu hal yang baru gue sadari.. Karna ngambil paket yang gratisan, jadinya memorinya cuma sedikit.. dan dikala memorinya off the limit yang ada nanti gue ke-lim-pu-ngan. Berdasarkan firasat itu, gue bikin account di blogger.com ini buat mindahin blog gue dari web, atau sebaliknya. Sebab, rencananya itu web dibikin bukan untuk egoisme semata. Tapi kalo blog? Yaah, most of my posts will be My Bla-Bla-Blaaaah. Hoho ;)
Daripada sepi, gue pindahin aja kali blog2 lama gue ke sini.. Supaya kesannya rame'an gitu hehe.
Okelah, smoga saja tidak menjadi blog yang hanya menjadi bahan cemoohan orang.

Okay then,
Happy Reading Everyone :)
(Me)