Just got back from Bali last night, and it was GRRRR-EAT ! Gosh, I really hopes my eyes could do better. I'm sleepy but still, I want to share some shiny thingy from my holiday trip! Well, it's just one of my photos.. tommorow would be better, I assume.
Well, hello sunshine!
A quick update has just complished. Naughty night ! (it supposed to be nighty night, though ;p)
Setelah berpikir bahwa membaca postingan panjang pake skin ini hanya membuat para pembaca menjadi "Cuapek DEGH," (masalahnya gue juga puyeng ngebacanya) jadiii gue bikin blog baru yang isinya posting panjaaaaaaaaaaang.
Di sini buat foto2 atau some other things which doesn't take so much space in your window. See my other blog if you have some times blogwalking ;)
Emang deh, nggak ada yang bisa menggantikan theme ini sama yang lain. hmmmmm, cakeeuuup. Eh tapi, emang ga enak dibaca ya kalo nulis post yang panjang gitu. hh. yasudahlah, aku tak kuasa mencari penggantinya.. huhuhu
okay okay okay gue udah ga pernah ngurus blog.. jadi sebagai permintaan maaf gue beri foto freak to the maxxx gue (yang gue tau lo semua ga perlu waakakkakkk)
JENG JENG saksikan di saluran tv kesayangan anda ;)
Ya Allah.. ampunilah astarini yang nggak pernah bisa bikin post dengan baik dan benar......... and to be honest, it's an after-Mraz-concert-watching kinda effect. (bhs inggris ngawur seperti biasanya)
maaf kawan2 yang ada di foto nistaaaa itu.. sorry, I'll not mention your name kokss okay! aaand see you all bloggers, gilaa baek bener masih maen2 ke blog bapuk begini. okelah semoga gue segera bertobat. good bye !
gue yang mana? ooh itu lah gue yang paling freak lagi memohon kepadaNya semoga otak gue lekas nyambung. ah tau aaaah semakiiiin freak!
When people saw me at the very first time, I don't know what was exactly on their mind. But now, I knew.. I made a terrible mistake for being so-not-nice in front of those new people in my life.
Why am I writing these? Well, actually, after a long long time scared for falling in love.. I just realized, maybe now I've found the right key to open my heart again. Despite all of the sudden, I made a really big mistake.
If you have a crush on someone, of course there's a time when you really want to know whether this person feels the same way too or they don't. But in my case, I don't know if I'm able to think about it.. because it seems way too far. I asked a friend of mine, who is a boy, what was his opinion about me when we were not really know each other like we do now. Then, here comes the striking fact of myself which I didn't know for so long, he thought that I was a reallypeeves girl. I was shocked, but thankful for him being so honest. Nobody ever told me the truth--well, cika did-. I appreciate him so much for telling me those things, he's really open my mind.
He told me what is the reason for him to thinks like that at the time.. and he answered that I was :
Jutek , and
Nyolot
Besides, I was just kidding when he thought like that. I didn't know thatmy sarcastic jokesreally affects people's opinion about me.
So, for those undesired behavior, I just want to say :
I'm sorry from the deepest heart of mine. I promise you, I'll try to be a better person so I wouldn't ruin my own life , I wouldn't get you wrong about myself, and I'm very honored if you could help me solving my problems. I'd appreciate that so much.
Thank's to you who was being such a good listener yet a good adviser too :)
And, last but not least.. I hope that person (the one that I can't tell you who he is ;p) didn't think like that or at least not yet.
Hey people, maybe it's a new year plus 3 days, but still I want to saaaay :
Happy New Year, everyone ! Good wishes and I hope this year will be filled with more and more happiness for us :)
So, how's your new year's eve? Well, well, mine is good. Fine. Not bad. But, to be honest, a lil bit boring. Tanya kenapaaaa?
gue taun baruan sama bocahkeponakan2 (whose aunt is me. tante2 bho gueee) kesayangan plus bersama nenek2 mereka (yang udah mulai kembali ke masa kanak2), gue merasa satu2nya yang harus jagain mereka.. misalnya, kalo nyokap gue--atau tante2 yang lain- minta tolong apaa gitu, gue ga mungkin dengan teganya nyuruh bocah2 itu melaksanakan permintaan mereka dong, mereka masih kecil! mereka masih terlalu hijau! terus, bisa juga kalo bocah2 itu udah mulai lari2an, minta ditemenin mancing, minta tolongnyalain lilin buat kembang-api-an, bla bla bla udah pasti gue yang dimintain tolong.. yah, bagaimana lagi.. (theme song: lagu2 akustik mellow yang jadi backsound orang curhat di radio2 kesayangan Anda) pekerjaan saya menjadi dobel menggantikan si mbak ina yang bekerja di dapur, saya harus bangun pagi dan mendengarkan semuaa permintaan tuan2 muda itu.. daripada bapak sama ibu marahin saya sama ina, saya memang harus menjalankan pekerjaan mulia ini. harus.(yak, music director, tolong theme song nya diganti!)
yaaaaah begitulah, kenyataan nya gue ga punya rencana kemana2 sama teman2 juga (dan ga ada yang ngajak, sedihnya :'( ) yowess lah saya nikmati permulaan tahun ini dengan tahun baruan a labocah.
here are some photos :
farhan
nurul & fajar
ramean
pretty exciting, but yeah.. still very very childish. people said, "lumayan daripada lu manyuuun," ho ho ;)
I'll say it once again :
Hijriah 1430 (sekalian, hehe) dan Masehi 2009
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- it's about New Skin. what's your opinion about my new skin, well.. I didn't make this, but I just want to know whether this one is the better or worse then the last one.
sebenernya gue lebih suka tampilan yang sebelumnya, udah gue ngeditnya setengah mati pula.. tapi postingan gue jadi susah dibaca danga asyik banget lah. hh, ini buat sementara aja sih.. rencananya liburan panjaaang abis urusan2 universitas (OH MY GOD gue belom belajar) nanti, gue mau belajar bikin skin sendiri heheee semoga aja bisa bikin yang oke (sok baaanget).
okay then, I have to go to sleep if I don't want to be late tomorrow (for since tomorrow, school starts at six thirty, it means.. thirty minutes earlier!) and I'll go to school by bus (maan). Of course, I don't want to be late at my first day after this loooong holiday.. no, no, I didn't looking for somebody at school (nobody wants to know about it, rin) but I missed my best best buddies sooooo much!
Aw! Besok ada Mr. Walaaaaaaay aw man aw man harus ambil buku, siapin baju olahraga, siapin mental bangun subuh lagi, dan ga lupa siapin fisik karena guru olahraga gue itu atlet coooy! (sedikit bohong deng)
See you at another post, if I have time to make one. :'( Oh I missed this whole bolgosphere--posting, playing with codes, blogwalking, and so on-
1. take a recent photo of yourself or take a picture of yourself right now 2. don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair, just take a picture 3. post the picture with no editing 4. post this instruction with your picture 5. tag 10 people to do this
aduh aduh, gue seperti dikejar hutang kalo ga ngerjain pr ini, entah kenapa zz (padahal yang nyuruh aja udah lupa mungkin haha)
hey bloggers, I'm about to change my blog's skin. How's that?
Well, it doesn't mean that I don't like this one.. but I don't know why I just want to change it. Hum, let me take a sec to think twice. Okay, I got the answer and it's a NO. I totally forgot what would happened if I had to change my blog skin, it would be a loooong day and there's no sleep at night. The test is coming, I had to keep my body's health at a good condition nowadays, and I had to work it up so when the day is come I can give my best. (So, what's the point of the title, by the way?)
Okay, another question is.. what if I add this blog at my facebook? I'd like to let my friends know what I'm up to, what I wanted to say but I can't say it out loud, and so on. But, because it's too teenagers and childish.. I don't know why I don't feel it's a good idea to let my siblings read my words. (?)
Oh well, I'm about to change my writing kind of way later.. I still have to dealing with books and books. (that's why I still updating my facebook, it still has a book-word on it, right? ho ho)
There's still looong way to go, my friends. I miss blogging, I miss all of my friends here.
I'll be back as soon as I can, and wish me luck :')
my family is my love ones, my friends is my love ones too..
but, why am i feel that something's missing ?
i turn my head again, oh there are a lot of lovebirds around me..
hmm, my hearts hurting, my eyes burning, did they bring me back to my memories?
back to those hurting, stupid, unwanted memories of my some kind of love-like feelings.. for him.
i've been in love, and it doesn't make me happy.
i've been there, i've been hurting, i've been crying, i've been sick,
yes, i've been in love.
i hate it, i hate the fact that i've been there, hurting, crying, sick, just because one person.
that one person, i've been in love for years.
i like love, i didn't hate love, but for being there again, falling for love again..
i would say,
"no, not for now.. no, thank's.
i would fall for love,
if there's somebody whom with his love could make me love him whole-heartedly.
then, please love.. don't leave me in the darkness again, like what you've been doing to me now"
my dream is too high? maybe.
never mind waiting too long than hurting too long. i believe someday he'd come. whenever it would be, soon or still someday in the future.
never mind waiting, but please be sure you'd come, mydestiny.
(i'm freaking lonely, didn't I? haha actually i'm about seeing somebody, but then i remember how does it feel when i was in love. oh yeah i remember clearly, that it was a disaster. did love hates me? oh dear, how could it be. i just can say i like him, but i'm scared enough to say i'm in love. he doesn't know me, so do i.. what makes me feel this way to somebody that i didn't know well? dunno. hmm, i decided to let my feelings flew. it would end in seconds, i supposed. oh love, how could you being so not nice to me? people say falling in love is a gift, could you show me that it's true? or it just some kind of jokes?
what the freak, rin.
forget it, guys. i'm desperate enough imagine my high school prom night.. so i think of things, then those things lead me writing of these freakish things. don't bother.)
Well, hello sunshine!
eneng cover gal
si otong favorit ku
Ya Allah.. ampunilah astarini yang nggak pernah bisa bikin post dengan baik dan benar.........
farhan
nurul & fajar
ramean
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